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Junpei Yoshino, 19

"If there was a button that killed everyone I hated, I probably wouldn't press it ... but if there was a button that killed everyone who hated me, I'd press it without hesitation."

 

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[moondregs]

What’s going on? I’ve got nothing but time.

[dead_tongue]

well. Grady's gone. so that's, you know. heartbreaking. Jin Guangyao is staying with me for a while. I think he's actually taking it harder than I am. I also think he worries I won't be able to handle the house all on my own. which, you know, fair. I'm me. but I bet I can do it. I can learn how to fix a roof or whatever.

[moondregs]

Oh. I’m so sorry. For both of you.

You can always barter for services. People like you. They’ll want to help.

Do either of you have any favorite local foods?

[dead_tongue]

thanks. it sucks.

yeah, that's true. Sweeney would fix my roof if it ever broke, for sure.
I thought about moving back to town but... you understand, I think.

you're so sweet. uhm, honestly I'm drawing a blank but I'll ask him.

I'm sorry, I didn't call you up to cry about stuff. I just wanted to make sure you're like, okay-ish.

(CW: pregnancy joke)

[moondregs]

Let me know.

Sure. Aside from waiting to give birth to Damien.

cw: more pregnancy joking

[dead_tongue]

thanks.

maybe you'll luck out and it'll just be a cute alien baby.

[moondregs]

She’s a spider, Iggy. It won’t be cute. Whatever it is.

I’m so messed up from this place I can’t even muster being as horrified as I should be. I just want it over so I can get back to work.

[dead_tongue]

I'm sorry, I shouldn't make light of it.

you know, whatever happens, I'll help you however I can.

cw: assisted suicide

[moondregs]

If I turn into something dangerous, do you promise to kill me?

cw: assisted suicide

[dead_tongue]

yes. I promise.

(cw: oblique refs to pregnancy/childbirth)

[telepathy]

when it is done
when the stag mother no longer holds the stomach
what do you think should be done with it

[moondregs]

[ Junpei has already told people that his desire was to see it destroyed. Because that is what he would do.

He knew it was what he would do.

So why is he feeling like he’s been lying? Why does the thought make him anxious?

He deflects. ]

You can guess, can’t you?

[telepathy]

i can only guess what i would want if it had been me
what i do want
but it is your wound

cw: dubcon implications

[moondregs]

I thought I knew what I wanted too.

[ There’s just something about it being Mavis asking that is making him struggle to keep up the lie. ]

She didn’t tell us. Not even a hint. There wasn’t a chance to refuse.

I should be absolutely disgusted and angry.

Especially after what happened with Murphy. And Alina.

[telepathy]

what happened with murphy

cw: oviposition

[moondregs]

I put eggs in him. Twenty of them.

[telepathy]

[ like joan did. ]

did you know

[moondregs]

I knew but not that it was so many. I don’t know how he can still stand to be around me.

[telepathy]

recall slender
murphy knows what it is to feel like a monster
to do harm

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[ghostface]

( after ianthe's moot hall, having spent the entire duration watching junpei off and on with no small amount of interest. )

you weren't lying. you really are different.

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[moondregs]

What a difference a summer makes.

[ghostface]

( apparently. )

and you really didn't miss me at all?

[moondregs]

[ The encounter with Quentin had knocked him off kilter, no matter how hard he tried to pretend it hadn’t. ]

Did you miss me?

[ghostface]

i did miss you. that ain't a surprise, is it?

[moondregs]

I’m going to pretend it’s true, regardless.

Do you dislike the new me?