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Junpei Yoshino, 19

"If there was a button that killed everyone I hated, I probably wouldn't press it ... but if there was a button that killed everyone who hated me, I'd press it without hesitation."

 

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[moondregs]

[ The encounter with Quentin had knocked him off kilter, no matter how hard he tried to pretend it hadn’t. ]

Did you miss me?

[ghostface]

i did miss you. that ain't a surprise, is it?

[moondregs]

I’m going to pretend it’s true, regardless.

Do you dislike the new me?

[ghostface]

well, i don't know that i'd qualify this as entirely new behavior for you, junpei, though you've definitely upped the ante a little.

( mostly danny thinks he needs to be taken over a knee, preferably his own. )

[moondregs]

Maybe that’s just because you’ve always seen me as I am. Beneath all the decoration.

They all thought I was some soft hearted kid. Underestimating me. But I got tired of losing. Tired of the coddling.

[ghostface]

is that what you think your shit with zlatka is? the opposite of losing?

[moondregs]

We haven’t brought her down yet. Slowed her down temporarily, sure, but even a god couldn’t out power her. She got all of us in the castle with a wink. All the cards are hers. Any advantage we have is because she allows it.

[ghostface]

you're not wrong.

( not about that, anyway. )

but allying yourself with her ain't winning, either.

[moondregs]

There are only really two choices. If siding with the one that’s most likely to win isn’t winning, what is?

[ghostface]

it's surviving, but it ain't winning.

[moondregs]

I need to see her again.

It’s all I’ve thought about since the last time she spoke to me.

[ghostface]

( okay, mommy issues. )

she fucked you that good?

[moondregs]

It’s not about that.

She spoke to me so gently once. I felt whole.

When she was angry at me … it was more painful than death.

[ghostface]

'cause she's in your head, junpei. she's drip-feeding you right now. what happens when she's always angry at you? when that nightmare never ends?

cw: bodily mutilation

[moondregs]

You don’t know that. If I can just see her again, if she can see how I’ve sacrificed for her. I’ll cut off every limb. Make her my one and only.

[ghostface]

i do know that 'cause i've fuckin lived it. ( a stab and a miss, because danny's the only one who feels it in his guts. ) it will never be enough.

[moondregs]

With her?

[ghostface]

( let's pause this for a minute. void fog has him acting out, like a child, brain all fucked full of nonsense, busting out like a pregnant bitch at the seams. when he comes back fifteen, twenty minutes later, he's on a static neutral again. )

don't matter.

i want to see you. who's been keeping your cunt all fat and full while i've been away? murphy?

[moondregs]

Murphy. Khoriya. Aristaeus.

Do you remember when you said you thought about me being one of yours?

[ghostface]

you are one of mine.

( by proxy still counts. )

[moondregs]

Then keep me full. Don’t let me go hungry again. Make me worship you instead.

[ghostface]

is that how you want it? you want me to make you kneel and take my dick whenever i want you to take it?

you ain't getting any takebacks with that, junpei. i keep what's mine.

[moondregs]

That’s how I want it. That’s how I need it.

Remind me why I became obsessed with you.

[ghostface]

( well. while this will certainly cause a whole new set of problems, beggars can't be choosers, can they? better under danny's boot heel than zlatka's, especially if it gets him out of the castle. )

i ain't gonna share you with her, you know. is that what you want, too?

[moondregs]

You’d better remind me from time to time. So I don’t get careless.