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Junpei Yoshino, 19

"If there was a button that killed everyone I hated, I probably wouldn't press it ... but if there was a button that killed everyone who hated me, I'd press it without hesitation."

 

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[moondregs]

We were paired together for the last festival. I was his submissive.

[dead_tongue]

So. Wait.

Are we happy about this or do I have to go kick his ass?

[moondregs]

… do you mean have Grady go kick his ass?

It’s fine. He’s all talk.

[dead_tongue]

Hey. Don't imply my teddybear can't! He's terrifying!

Okay... you just don't seem thrilled.

[moondregs]

I just don’t know what’s happening to me lately.

[dead_tongue]

Talk to me? No judgement.

[moondregs]

I used to have more self-control. Now it’s like I’m starving for something and doing really dumb things because of it.

[dead_tongue]

Like what?

It's not dumb to have some fun at a festival, Junpei.

[moondregs]

Not the festival. It’s … I don’t really want to get into it. I’m just feeling weird.

[dead_tongue]

Junpei.

You're scaring me a little. What did you do?

[moondregs]

I’ve been … involving myself with someone I probably shouldn’t. And I should stop.

But I really, really don’t want to.

[dead_tongue]

Junpei are you fucking Goatface?

[moondregs]

… who?

[dead_tongue]

Nevermind.

It's Danny, isn't it?

[moondregs]

[ Ughhhhh. ]

You can’t tell anyone. I’m going to take care of it, okay? It’s just … just because things have been so crazy.

[dead_tongue]

...Didn't you tell me not to fuck him?

[moondregs]

Yes.

[dead_tongue]

The next time you tell me not to do something I'm just gonna assume you're projecting, you know.

Well.

Do you want him to stab you?

[moondregs]

No! He … says he won’t.

[ The way his voice falters indicates he knows how dumb that sounds. ]

Look, I said I was doing stupid things, didn’t I?

[dead_tongue]

I'm not judging, Junpei. I'm really not. I get it.

I think I'm a little jealous.

I guess Quentin...?

[moondregs]

Jealous?

Quentin would …

[ A twinge of pain in his chest. ]

He’s going to hate me.

[dead_tongue]

Yeah. I think you're more his type than I am!

I dunno about that. I mean. They've got a whole... complicated thing, don't they?

[moondregs]

What do you think his type is?

Yeah, they do, but I’m supposed to be above all of that.

[dead_tongue]

Well... sad eyes, sharp tongue.

Uh. That sounds really judgey, Junpei.

[moondregs]

I mean … it’s theirs. You don’t get involved in that. Especially not when you are supposed to be the stable one. The reliable one.