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Junpei Yoshino, 19

"If there was a button that killed everyone I hated, I probably wouldn't press it ... but if there was a button that killed everyone who hated me, I'd press it without hesitation."

 

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[dead_tongue]

me.

she said it had to be one of us, because she loves us.

[moondregs]

You’re talking like you’re near the Void again, where are you?

[dead_tongue]

sorry. it's difficult to think about without panicking. I'll try.

Ianthe took all my flesh off. all my organs, all my everything. I was awake the whole time. I felt everything. I was like one of her skeletons. that's all I was. bones.

I'm only alive and whole because of the Duchess. Ianthe gave me to her. she thought I would stay in the castle forever. I was never meant to come back. but Zlatka was merciful to me.

I'm telling you this because it was almost you.

[moondregs]

I don't understand.

Ianthe must be under the influence of something. That doesn't make any sense. She's weird but she wouldn't just do that for fun.

[dead_tongue]

no. she did it because it was the deal she struck many months ago, before I was even here, so that she could learn from the Duchess.

she knew what she was doing. she won't even deny it.

[moondregs]

[ A memory. Buried over the months. Before Iggy had come. Before he'd even MET Murphy. Almost a year ago.

At that horrible dinner in the castle. Ianthe chatting with the Duchess. Asking about ... ]

I'm sorry.

It should have been me, Iggy.

[dead_tongue]

yeah, she said you'd think that.

it'll be you eventually.

[moondregs]

[ That part he doesn’t speak to. It’s not him he’s concerned about. ]

You’re with Grady now, right? You’re somewhere safe?

[dead_tongue]

yes. I'm away from everyone but the people who won't hurt me any more.


I felt everything.

[moondregs]

You were always too kind for this place.

[dead_tongue]

so I should be punished?

[moondregs]

No. That wasn't what I meant.

[ But even when things aren't as dire, he seems to always say the wrong thing, so rather than make things any worse: ]

Thank you, Iggy. For wanting to warn me. For trying to be my friend.

Stay with them.

[dead_tongue]

ok.

Junpei. I am your friend. right?

everything feels wrong now.

[moondregs]

As long as you want me to be. After everything that's happened, nobody could blame you for cutting ties to protect yourself. Whatever you want, Iggy, that's what we'll be.

[dead_tongue]

I'm so dumb. I never saw it coming. I told her I'd help her with her project however I could. and I guess I did.

[moondregs]

It's not dumb to love, Iggy.

[dead_tongue]

she was going to leave me there forever.

[moondregs]

It's all about her sister. It blinds her to everything else. She really thinks she can bring her back. It's foolish. And selfish. I'm sorry.

[dead_tongue]

you're not as trusting as me, and you're right not to be. you were right all along.

[moondregs]

I wish I wasn't. It's not a good feeling.

[dead_tongue]

I pray it will keep you safer.