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Junpei Yoshino, 19

"If there was a button that killed everyone I hated, I probably wouldn't press it ... but if there was a button that killed everyone who hated me, I'd press it without hesitation."

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[ Junpei is tired.

Really, that’s not unusual. There’s always something draining his energy from one month to the next.

But lately worry over a very ill Murphy, over the increasingly common disappearances, has brought his fatigue to a new low.

There’s still a prick of anxiety at suddenly having Quentin in his head again, but … ]

I do.

But I’m here watching Murphy tonight. He’s in bad shape. I don’t want to move him.

what is it? is it from the bugs?

Yeah.

You can use my house. Just give me a day or two. Ari will want to relocate him soon again. He doesn’t like staying in one place. Then I’ll go with them.

it's not going to get better in a day or two
you should let him die, he'd be more comfortable and everyone would be safer

I'm gonna take a wild guess and say he won't let you?

[ #murphythings ]

There’s been a lot of dying and not coming back lately.

None of us want to take that risk.

[ There's no way that Junpei doesn't know this. No way that it doesn't haunt him constantly. Quentin hates saying it. Still, it has to be asked: ]

He's going to die anyway from this thing
Is this how you want him to go out?

That’s not a guarantee. As long as he’s still alive, there’s hope. It’s what he wants, and I’m going to keep fighting for him.

Like he kept fighting for me. Even when I was trying to push him away.

Okay
He's lucky you're so stubborn
ig vice versa too

[ He shouldn't rise to the bait, but he hasn't talked to Junpei in weeks. Is he going to get another chance? With the way they're all falling sick-- ]

If loving Danny taught me anything, it was that I can't beat my head against walls that won't give

I love you. I thought you knew that. I thought you believed it.

I believed it.

It’s not as if I expect you to throw your principles aside. The fact nobody else I love turned on me boggles my mind everyday. That’s why I didn’t come seeking you out, even when I started to come back to reality.

You were justified.