"If there was a button that killed everyone I hated, I probably wouldn't press it ... but if there was a button that killed everyone who hated me, I'd press it without hesitation."
I’m not blaming him. I’m telling you where my head was.
Because I broke Quentin’s trust. Saying I let him down isn’t strong enough. We were … what we had was special. Everything we’d been through. Now it’s gone.
then what is it, Junpei?! trauma response? if it is, I understand, but then say so! otherwise the answer is literally "his dick was there and House thinks it's hot." which is horniness.
Why would having sex with someone be a trauma response? That doesn’t make any sense.
I can’t make you feel what I feel when Danny’s saying the things he does. It’s like he’s talking to a part of me nobody else does. And I like it. But I hate it.
a while back, I asked John if I could play with Danny. I said, "I know you probably won't let him kill me" and you know what? he didn't say anything about that.
now I think he'd have let him do it, and it was unfair of me to assume otherwise.
you can't get mad at the keepers if the tiger eats you when you're the one who climbed into its pen. and you can't get mad at the tiger for not listening to its keepers. it's a wild animal.
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Easiest thing in the world to do, and I couldn’t do it for him. Had every chance to put the brakes on it.
He got sensei involved.
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how did he do that?
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Junpei, you need to take responsibility for this, but you don't put yourself in the fucking stocks over it. that's not gonna make anyone feel better.
why do you feel bad about it?
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Because I broke Quentin’s trust. Saying I let him down isn’t strong enough. We were … what we had was special. Everything we’d been through. Now it’s gone.
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then why did you do it? Junpei you've been denying you were gonna do this for like, weeks. what the hell changed?
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And then he was there. Behind me. Hands on my hips, and my throat. All over me. I felt like if I didn’t have him I’d die.
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jeez what a mess.
I don't think you're a bad person.
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I can’t make you feel what I feel when Danny’s saying the things he does. It’s like he’s talking to a part of me nobody else does. And I like it. But I hate it.
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he understands you?
cw: genital mutilation
He offered to cut a guy’s dick off for me once. And I wanted him to.
cw: genital mutilation, murrrrderrrr
you know he'll kill you, right?
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now I think he'd have let him do it, and it was unfair of me to assume otherwise.
you can't get mad at the keepers if the tiger eats you when you're the one who climbed into its pen. and you can't get mad at the tiger for not listening to its keepers. it's a wild animal.
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But I don’t think it has the right thrill for him.
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sure it doesn't.
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you're sitting here telling me you deserve to be murdered. how the hell would that fix anything? you'd just hurt people more.
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Guess I can’t handle my relationships as well as you do.
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excuse me?
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