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[moondregs]

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Junpei Yoshino, 19

"If there was a button that killed everyone I hated, I probably wouldn't press it ... but if there was a button that killed everyone who hated me, I'd press it without hesitation."

 

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[dead_tongue]

there's no right, sweetie, it's not like that

[moondregs]

We’d check in on each other almost every day. Not always talking. Just sending out a signal and waiting for a response. He was always looking out for me … and I thought I was always looking out for him. But that was expecting other people to hurt him. Not me.

[dead_tongue]

was it worth it? no judgement.

[moondregs]

Of course it wasn’t.

[dead_tongue]

have you seen him again?

[moondregs]

I saw him at Billy’s party. But we didn’t talk.

[dead_tongue]

so you only banged once?

[moondregs]

In person.

[dead_tongue]

I know we're supposed to be wallowing, but...

Details?

[moondregs]

He found me at work.

[dead_tongue]

damn. hot.

and then it's just been a lot of dirty brainsex?

[moondregs]

Iggy!

[dead_tongue]

what?!

[moondregs]

The sex is irrelevant!

[dead_tongue]

I'd say it's pretty fucking relevant...

literally! omg I'm so clever sometimes!

[moondregs]

It’s only because you want to sleep with Danny.

[dead_tongue]

nah. I'm not his type, so I've accepted it and moved on.

I've decided to be into soft boys now.

[moondregs]

Uh huh. Who?

[dead_tongue]

well I don't know, there's lots out there!

like Finch! he's a sweetie pie! he gave me a massage!

[moondregs]

But that doesn’t excite you.

[dead_tongue]

it did, actually. I mean, okay, I fell asleep, but that's why it's exciting! I slept! he rubbed my forearms!

[moondregs]

I can’t complain about you relaxing for a change.

[dead_tongue]

yeah.
that's my plan, now.


so.
earlier this month I saw someone flipping out. I tried to help. they didn't want my help. and I snapped at them. they told me "you are not kind."

and they were right. I yelled at someone in mental distress. and why? because of my dumb ego? because I had to force MY idea of helping on them?
hell, even you've told me that I'm not actually nice.

so. I'm just gonna look after myself for a while.

[moondregs]

Iggy, we were both mad and said things we shouldn’t have.

But you should focus on yourself, so I’m not going to dissuade you from that.

[dead_tongue]

maybe. but you said it for a reason, and I need to examine that.

yeah.
so! soft boys only!
and my sweet wonderful perfect murdermuffin which OH MY GOD so you remember what you said about the love of my fucking life?!?