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Junpei Yoshino, 19

"If there was a button that killed everyone I hated, I probably wouldn't press it ... but if there was a button that killed everyone who hated me, I'd press it without hesitation."

 

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[dead_tongue]

I know what you did.

[moondregs]

From who?

[dead_tongue]

what? nobody.

wait, why? did you do something to piss someone off?

[moondregs]

What do you think I did?

[dead_tongue]

you look like you got mauled by an amorous possum or something.

are you okay? my plan was to tease you and you'd admit guilt but in like, a cute fun way.

[moondregs]

Oh, you mean the evidence of me being a worthless, selfish whore.

[dead_tongue]

what?!?

okay that's a lot to unpack there, so let's start with you not being worthless, wtf Junpei?!?

[moondregs]

Quentin was my best friend here.

Helped me. Was there for me. Protective of me.

But that wasn’t enough. Not for me.

[dead_tongue]

Junpei what did you


oh
oh you did.

[moondregs]

Ianthe offered to remove the marks.

I turned her down. I need to wear them.

[dead_tongue]

Junpei this isn't the Scarlet Letter!

[moondregs]

You’re right. Because I chose them.

[dead_tongue]

yeah, you did. you chose to fuck a known serial killer and your best friend's ex.

that doesn't make you a "worthless selfish whore."
(we'll discuss that particular word choice later.]

[moondregs]

Of course it does. You can’t sugarcoat this one, Iggy.

Easiest thing in the world to do, and I couldn’t do it for him. Had every chance to put the brakes on it.

He got sensei involved.

[dead_tongue]

you still have worth. saying you're worthless is just you being self loathing, and also avoiding responsibility in a weird way.

how did he do that?

[moondregs]

Danny, I mean. Told him that he wanted to fuck me. Sensei then let me know how hot the idea got him. Wanted details. Made resistance that much harder.

[dead_tongue]

oh no you don't. you don't get to blame House for this.

Junpei, you need to take responsibility for this, but you don't put yourself in the fucking stocks over it. that's not gonna make anyone feel better.

why do you feel bad about it?

[moondregs]

I’m not blaming him. I’m telling you where my head was.

Because I broke Quentin’s trust. Saying I let him down isn’t strong enough. We were … what we had was special. Everything we’d been through. Now it’s gone.

[dead_tongue]

alright. sorry. I'm frustrated.

then why did you do it? Junpei you've been denying you were gonna do this for like, weeks. what the hell changed?

[moondregs]

There’s something about him. I can’t put words to it. It’s a feeling. Nobody has ever made me feel that way. I was starving for it.

And then he was there. Behind me. Hands on my hips, and my throat. All over me. I felt like if I didn’t have him I’d die.

[dead_tongue]

congratulations, you've experienced true horniness. I admit I was expecting something a little more dramatic.

jeez what a mess.

I don't think you're a bad person.

[moondregs]

It’s not just being horny!

[dead_tongue]

then what is it, Junpei?! trauma response? if it is, I understand, but then say so! otherwise the answer is literally "his dick was there and House thinks it's hot." which is horniness.

[moondregs]

Why would having sex with someone be a trauma response? That doesn’t make any sense.

I can’t make you feel what I feel when Danny’s saying the things he does. It’s like he’s talking to a part of me nobody else does. And I like it. But I hate it.

[dead_tongue]

because sometimes when we're fucked up we self destruct.

he understands you?