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Junpei Yoshino, 19

"If there was a button that killed everyone I hated, I probably wouldn't press it ... but if there was a button that killed everyone who hated me, I'd press it without hesitation."

 

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[dead_tongue]

but you miss him. yeah.

[moondregs]

I don’t feel like I have the right to miss him.

[dead_tongue]

there's no right, sweetie, it's not like that

[moondregs]

We’d check in on each other almost every day. Not always talking. Just sending out a signal and waiting for a response. He was always looking out for me … and I thought I was always looking out for him. But that was expecting other people to hurt him. Not me.

[dead_tongue]

was it worth it? no judgement.

[moondregs]

Of course it wasn’t.

[dead_tongue]

have you seen him again?

[moondregs]

I saw him at Billy’s party. But we didn’t talk.

[dead_tongue]

so you only banged once?

[moondregs]

In person.

[dead_tongue]

I know we're supposed to be wallowing, but...

Details?

[moondregs]

He found me at work.

[dead_tongue]

damn. hot.

and then it's just been a lot of dirty brainsex?

[moondregs]

Iggy!

[dead_tongue]

what?!

[moondregs]

The sex is irrelevant!

[dead_tongue]

I'd say it's pretty fucking relevant...

literally! omg I'm so clever sometimes!

[moondregs]

It’s only because you want to sleep with Danny.

[dead_tongue]

nah. I'm not his type, so I've accepted it and moved on.

I've decided to be into soft boys now.

[moondregs]

Uh huh. Who?

[dead_tongue]

well I don't know, there's lots out there!

like Finch! he's a sweetie pie! he gave me a massage!

[moondregs]

But that doesn’t excite you.

[dead_tongue]

it did, actually. I mean, okay, I fell asleep, but that's why it's exciting! I slept! he rubbed my forearms!

[moondregs]

I can’t complain about you relaxing for a change.

[dead_tongue]

yeah.
that's my plan, now.


so.
earlier this month I saw someone flipping out. I tried to help. they didn't want my help. and I snapped at them. they told me "you are not kind."

and they were right. I yelled at someone in mental distress. and why? because of my dumb ego? because I had to force MY idea of helping on them?
hell, even you've told me that I'm not actually nice.

so. I'm just gonna look after myself for a while.