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Junpei Yoshino, 19

"If there was a button that killed everyone I hated, I probably wouldn't press it ... but if there was a button that killed everyone who hated me, I'd press it without hesitation."

 

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[dead_tongue]

yeah.

I'm sorry. I wasn't trying to worry anyone.

[moondregs]

This place … things are so uncertain. It makes us all feel panicked. There’s no real stability. No real comfort.

[dead_tongue]

respectfully, I disagree.

[moondregs]

You have a brighter outlook than me on most things.

[dead_tongue]

well, yeah, but only because I know it to be true.

look, shit is uncertain everywhere. here, okay, more extremely so but like.

we make our own stability, I think. inside.

[moondregs]

I don’t know if I can.

[dead_tongue]

yeah.

I'm trying to learn how.

[moondregs]

If you figure it out, let me know?

I’d at least like to not burn any more bridges if I can help it.

[dead_tongue]

I will.

what do you mean?

[moondregs]

I haven’t heard from Quentin since I told him.

[dead_tongue]

yeah. can't say I'm shocked.

he's OK. I've seen him.

[moondregs]

Yeah. He has lots of people to protect him. I’m thankful for that.

[dead_tongue]

but you miss him. yeah.

[moondregs]

I don’t feel like I have the right to miss him.

[dead_tongue]

there's no right, sweetie, it's not like that

[moondregs]

We’d check in on each other almost every day. Not always talking. Just sending out a signal and waiting for a response. He was always looking out for me … and I thought I was always looking out for him. But that was expecting other people to hurt him. Not me.

[dead_tongue]

was it worth it? no judgement.

[moondregs]

Of course it wasn’t.

[dead_tongue]

have you seen him again?

[moondregs]

I saw him at Billy’s party. But we didn’t talk.

[dead_tongue]

so you only banged once?

[moondregs]

In person.

[dead_tongue]

I know we're supposed to be wallowing, but...

Details?

[moondregs]

He found me at work.

[dead_tongue]

damn. hot.

and then it's just been a lot of dirty brainsex?